Nothing much to do beside worry of my dog, she is dying. Everybody who saw her will tell me this.
I can see her struggling with pain, but I just not ready to let go.
Should I let her go, should I give up so easily? After more than 3 months of trying, no improvement can be seen, she is still suffering, I am still helpless.
Anyway, about my birthday, nothing special after all is already my 32nd, have some good dinner and wine, received some thoughtful sms and e-card, went to shop a present for myself, wishing all the best for my dog.
Oh yes, my birthday is also the human right day, that’s why I am a democratic person, LOL, but wanted to be democratic or can be democratic is the totally different story, at least my company not so keen when its include profit margin consideration.
That’s life I suppose, we can just sing along.
Almost forget, my colleagues thrown me surprise party, I mean simple one, cake and song, but after few parties been done this months, lots of December boys and girls in the office, the surprise is expected, hahahaha.
However, they are sweet, thanks a lot.
There is no absolute democracy in an organization even in a country.
2 days in a row I had listened to the same argument from 2 prominent leaders, they may have their stand, and I do agree to a certain extent, but not totally.
Yes, in term of better discipline and well organize; monism is the best way to force everything work as you think, but this will cause an organization and a country functioning like a body without a soul. No creativity or innovation.
I always believe working with people with an open heart; will have better performance in term of productivity and creativity. We can’t expect everybody to agree with your point of view, but at least we are able to open ourselves to alternative view.
However, I totally surrender to the 2 person when he talked about company interest is what we should obey; I can’t help but wonder, is there anyone who do business without taking into cosideration the profit margin? Obviously the answer is quite clear.
So I give up of fighting, and do agree with him, if you don’t like it, just leave. Perhaps this is the best solution.
About my dog, after 4 veterinary surgeons almost killed her, she cannot eat any food may cause by no appetizer, or the worse may be she wants to kill herself. So I have to feed her with organic soya milk added with glucose.
This morning my tear almost burst out when she refused to eat anything, I really don’t know what to do; there is no one to trust anymore.
2 days in a row I had listened to the same argument from 2 prominent leaders, they may have their stand, and I do agree to a certain extent, but not totally.
Yes, in term of better discipline and well organize; monism is the best way to force everything work as you think, but this will cause an organization and a country functioning like a body without a soul. No creativity or innovation.
I always believe working with people with an open heart; will have better performance in term of productivity and creativity. We can’t expect everybody to agree with your point of view, but at least we are able to open ourselves to alternative view.
However, I totally surrender to the 2 person when he talked about company interest is what we should obey; I can’t help but wonder, is there anyone who do business without taking into cosideration the profit margin? Obviously the answer is quite clear.
So I give up of fighting, and do agree with him, if you don’t like it, just leave. Perhaps this is the best solution.
About my dog, after 4 veterinary surgeons almost killed her, she cannot eat any food may cause by no appetizer, or the worse may be she wants to kill herself. So I have to feed her with organic soya milk added with glucose.
This morning my tear almost burst out when she refused to eat anything, I really don’t know what to do; there is no one to trust anymore.
An old man came by when I left my office today, he talked to me while I was locking the door, it was already almost 10pm, I won’t be friendly to talk to a stranger at this time, due to my concern he might be a robber, because the crime rate in town is high.
However, I guess he was aware of my concern, so he kept a distance from me, and asked why I stayed until so late in the office.
My answer was very simple, “this is work”.
This one I like the most so far.
I used to stay until 9 something in the office, go back at 8pm is consider early for me, you might say I am a workaholic, but to me, avoiding heavy traffic in the evening is my concern, instead of wasting time on the road, I prefer to do some paper work, and get ready for the next day.
But most important thing is when you go to work, you have to be passionate about it, if you only work for living, your career won’t get alive, and you ended up with bad reputation, too many examples I had seen.
So when I work, I work with passion.
Oh yes, another thing need passion, is my handmade Christmas cards for all my colleagues, just finish 3 so far, 12 to go.
However, I guess he was aware of my concern, so he kept a distance from me, and asked why I stayed until so late in the office.
My answer was very simple, “this is work”.
I used to stay until 9 something in the office, go back at 8pm is consider early for me, you might say I am a workaholic, but to me, avoiding heavy traffic in the evening is my concern, instead of wasting time on the road, I prefer to do some paper work, and get ready for the next day.
But most important thing is when you go to work, you have to be passionate about it, if you only work for living, your career won’t get alive, and you ended up with bad reputation, too many examples I had seen.
So when I work, I work with passion.
Oh yes, another thing need passion, is my handmade Christmas cards for all my colleagues, just finish 3 so far, 12 to go.
My dog condition still up and down, seeing her suffering, my heart is bleeding, but I won’t give up easily, although most of my friends suggested that I should give her up, but I still insist to try my best.
Some time I really wonder that why everybody want me to give up because she is just a dog?
She is more that a dog to me, she was with me when I had my most difficult time, she helps me to recover from my pain, she is the one that make me enjoy to go home, seeing she happily welcomes me home is the most wonderful time in a day.
I enjoy her company, she makes me laugh and angry too, but most of the time we enjoy our time together, with my friends too I suppose, she is a good host comes to the point that she really knows how to entertain my guests.
She is the most wonderful thing I ever have in my life, would you still say she is just a dog? I bet you are not.
So I make a wish today while setting up a Christmas tree in my office, please let my dog get better soon, let the festive power heal my dog, I crossed my finger very hard too. Let’s pray for her.
Some time I really wonder that why everybody want me to give up because she is just a dog?
She is more that a dog to me, she was with me when I had my most difficult time, she helps me to recover from my pain, she is the one that make me enjoy to go home, seeing she happily welcomes me home is the most wonderful time in a day.
I enjoy her company, she makes me laugh and angry too, but most of the time we enjoy our time together, with my friends too I suppose, she is a good host comes to the point that she really knows how to entertain my guests.
She is the most wonderful thing I ever have in my life, would you still say she is just a dog? I bet you are not.
So I make a wish today while setting up a Christmas tree in my office, please let my dog get better soon, let the festive power heal my dog, I crossed my finger very hard too. Let’s pray for her.
Seeing my dog suffering from her illness, I can’t help but feel really bad about her and my life.
Hold my study and come back to work never a right choice but myself is the one to be blame not my dog, without having enough time to take care of her is how the whole disaster happened today.
Apparently 2 of the veterinary surgeons I went are not good enough, and my poor doggie reacted to the medication badly, and now her body is badly swollen, hence she looks like a bear rather than a Rottie.
The 3rd veterinary surgeon I had, told me that the previous vets are not giving proper medication for my dog, however, he is also not so sure about what happen to my dog, so he is giving my dog another 2 weeks of medication.
Good news is if my dog is cure from swollen, then she is only having general infection (without clarify what illness is this), and the bad news is my dog has to get her chemotherapy but unfortunately they don’t have the facility.
What a shame, the vet even indirectly gave me an option to put my dog to sleep if I got the bad news.
I was really pissed off for 2 things, first is these vets are having my dog like a guinea pig, they are not even sure what wrong with my dog, and sadly my colleague told me even human having the same treatment, this is a matter of luck of whether you getting a good doctor or the another way around. Shame to hear that.
The second part is my life really occupied with my work, where I practically no time to do anything of my own, included take good care of my dog.
So lately I really have deep thought about what had happened, if this kind of lifestyle is what I want? Working exhaustedly, burden myself with worthless problem; so much so put my life on fire with all kind of disasters.
Then the biggest problem is, besides rambling here, what else can I do?
Hold my study and come back to work never a right choice but myself is the one to be blame not my dog, without having enough time to take care of her is how the whole disaster happened today.
Apparently 2 of the veterinary surgeons I went are not good enough, and my poor doggie reacted to the medication badly, and now her body is badly swollen, hence she looks like a bear rather than a Rottie.
The 3rd veterinary surgeon I had, told me that the previous vets are not giving proper medication for my dog, however, he is also not so sure about what happen to my dog, so he is giving my dog another 2 weeks of medication.
Good news is if my dog is cure from swollen, then she is only having general infection (without clarify what illness is this), and the bad news is my dog has to get her chemotherapy but unfortunately they don’t have the facility.
What a shame, the vet even indirectly gave me an option to put my dog to sleep if I got the bad news.
I was really pissed off for 2 things, first is these vets are having my dog like a guinea pig, they are not even sure what wrong with my dog, and sadly my colleague told me even human having the same treatment, this is a matter of luck of whether you getting a good doctor or the another way around. Shame to hear that.
The second part is my life really occupied with my work, where I practically no time to do anything of my own, included take good care of my dog.
So lately I really have deep thought about what had happened, if this kind of lifestyle is what I want? Working exhaustedly, burden myself with worthless problem; so much so put my life on fire with all kind of disasters.
Then the biggest problem is, besides rambling here, what else can I do?
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